54 days down, Too Many To Go...

Day 54 into deployment is done.
55 has just barely begun.

55 links total.

 Our sticker chart : 53 stickers total.

I wonder to myself looking at the chain links, sticker charts, calendars, and more around our home how I'll get through the rest of this deployment. The days seem like forever to me. But I've still got a while to go. How could all the days and weeks and months that he was here go by so quickly it seemed? And this seems to be lasting forever. I miss him so very much. Anyone who has their spouse/SO home with them should count themselves lucky. I wish I could have mine home with us. I wish I could actually talk to him face to face. I wish he could hog the bed - covers and all. I wish I could have him here to hold me, kiss me, and tell me everything is alright. The thing that hurts my heart the most is that he can't be here with his kids. That he can't physically be here to watch them as they grow so fast.

It's also hard to know that he's having a hard time... and he tells me "not to worry". I worry about him all the time. Especially when I can hear it in his voice and what he's saying. I wish I could make it all easy for him.

Sorry for my moment on my soapbox... it's just hard some nights and days... some are harder than others.

It's never really easy. 

I cut bangs for my hair. I haven't decided if I like it or not. 

At least if I do hate it.. it'll grow.

I guess this is my 40th blog post?

Stay safe my love. Come home soon and safe to us.

- Rayne.